I haven’t explored much into this Vodou lifestyle since first acknowledging that it deserves a place in my practices. I’m not very knowledgeable and often feel like I’m floundering. In fact, I’m often so uncertain that I let it keep me away from doing much. Of course, I feel like I’m floundering when I’m just focused on the Kemetic aspect, so it’s almost like home. It’s nothing new, really. Since I’ve stopped giving offerings (yet again) on a daily basis, I’ve been left feeling even more uncertain lately. I keep waffling back and forth on the whole thing. Really, it’s pretty fucking irritating but it’s in my nature.
It’s just one of the things I’ll have to overcome as days go by.
Today, Camylleon posted an article by Kenaz Filan about the importance of St. Patrick’s Day from a Vodou standpoint. Aside from learning what I can about the Ghede and about Legba, I haven’t explored much else. The whole thing is so new and different that I don’t really know where to begin. And since I’ve never really felt drawn to any other of the Lwa, it didn’t seem important to explore further. But in having read this article, it occurred to me that I should do a little something, perhaps, that could go either way in the eyes of Damballah.
I didn’t have anything that I could use to honor Loko, especially since I know that the relation there is in regards to an asogwe. Again, I haven’t much information gathered because of a distinct “AAAH” feeling about the whole process. And even though the article stated that in honoring one without the other was an insult, I didn’t think I would insulting Damballah by giving him a little something. It may not mean much because it is small and left with shaking hands, but it’s something at least. And while I’m sure Kenaz has a point about it being rude to honor one without the other, as a neophyte, I think I may be forgiven for not doing so.
So. Just a little something to say, “hey, I remember,” to the White Serpent.