It’s been pretty much decided (by me and two others) that what the dream is going on about is that I’m trying to avoid something and that this could end up in me losing an aspect of my safety net or something along those lines. There’s, probably, more to it than that, but my problem [of the moment] is that I don’t know what in the world the overall conflict or what I’m avoiding could possibly be. So, this is me trying to bring all of the information I’ve gotten on porcupines into a single entry so that I can reflect back whenever needed.
Prickly, stickly, do not push
Into my life without consent.
Unasked advice has no price.
Control is not good intent.
- powerful medicines: faith and truth
- trust in spirit
- creating your own path
- protection of boundaries
- defense when threatened
- allowing others their own path
- sensitive to criticism
- overly critical of others
- don’t get caught in the Chaos of the world
- childlike sense of wonder
- open your heart
In reality, while the spirit information is very interesting, I’m not sure it’s really the area that I need to look into. Okay, well, that’s not quite true. I do need to look into spirit animals *AT SOME POINT* but at this juncture, I can’t see any of these aspects as the reason behind the dream or the possible conflict that may end up happening because of said aspects. (That was kind of garbled.) I do have to say that in looking up the spirit information about porcupines, I’m vastly intrigued. However, in thus doing and in wracking my brain pan all day, I think I’ve come up with a couple of theories that are worth taking a look at.
My initial reaction to trying to figure out what the whole porcupine business was about was that I should look to myself and see what aspects of myself are similar to porcupines. It seemed that, perhaps, this was based solely on my prickly nature. I am, after all, incredibly acerbic and reserved. One might even say that I have defenses similar to that which one would find on a porcupine. However, instead of using these defenses when fearful of a specific event or circumstance, I use them prior to being hurt in an effort to keep myself from being hurt. My defenses are always on high alert, too. So, in trying to bypass this very nature of myself, I may be incurring a future in which I lose someone or something very close to me because of said defenses. This theory has a feeling about it that’s very important to pay attention to. It’s possible that I may have interpreted not entirely accurately, but there’s something here that says, Pay attention.
However, this isn’t the only possible manifestation that I can come up with.
If anyone that’s reading this has read my personal journal, especially in the last month, then they know about my issues concerning OF. Another friend of mine also had issues with said person, although she got it tougher than I did. In effect, it seemed that the two were (as based on OF’s perception, but not reality) were “battling” it out for whosoever would get “custody” of me. (Yeah, it’s ridiculous. Seriously.) Anyway, this friend of mine posted today that she knew she was being crossed and that, specifically, she had no delusions that OF and her husband had something to do with it. (The fact that they would turn to magic over differences of opinion and my decision to protect myself against her problems? Speaks highly, doesn’t it?) This led me to wonder if, maybe, it wasn’t myself that I was trying to bypass in my dream but their trying to cross me because of feeling slighted. It also leaves me quite worried that the overall outcome of trying to distract/bypass the porcupines in question was that someone in my group, that I relied upon and cared about, was “killed” in the process. Is this a reflection of my damaged relationship with the Sister, perchance? That in trying to bypass the crossing I’ve lost her? Or is it a future event?
The other thing that has come to mind actually came about because Devo made mention that it was possible that Sekhmet was pulling out the “big guns” to get me to stop acting like a dolt. In it, she mentioned that it was possible that this was a visitation from Big Red, Himself. (I’m trying not to literally be scared of that statement. Seriously.) I have a nasty habit of just ducking my head into the sand and ignoring things or, as in the dream, just trying to skirt around said issues without actually interacting with them. This is a very bad habit of mine and I find it nearly impossible to stop. However, if it’s possible that there is some form of issue or conflict forming that I’m doing my utmost best to stick my head in the sand from, then I can see why Sekhmet would put a call in to BR. He does have a habit of shoving people over the cliff (Devo’s words) to get the ball rolling.
My last-ditch effort was to try a Tarot reading for this. I tried focusing intently on the two porcupines as seen in my dream. I also thought about, hopefully, getting a meaning behind the whole dream. However, from the get-go in trying to figure this out, Tarot didn’t seem as an appropriate outlet for trying to figure this out. I had, initially, felt that I’d give it a shot, but I wasn’t overly thrilled with the whole prospect. And to be honest, I don’t feel that I did an adequate job with this. Still, I did get a reading and the least I can do is try to figure out what the fuck it all means.
The first card was the seven of wands, reversed. This card was in the “current direction” area. According to my book’s interpretations, this means that I’m heading towards/in a situation of conflict and that I’m currently at a superior vantage point in the conflict. This remains possible as it is this dream that is foretelling the overall event. In giving me a glance to the future that does leave me in a superior position. The card goes on to tell me that I need to call on my strength reserves, my inner strength, courage and determination to prevail.
The second card is the page of pentacles, reversed. This card resides in the “lesson to be learned” area. This card is telling me that I may start to experience difficulties because I didn’t read “the fine print” attached. It’s also possible that I may fail to see the big picture because I’m so engrossed with the details. Both of these seem like it’s a possibility. However, the aspect in which I may be facing difficulties because I didn’t read all the details could, literally, pertain to any number of things: my friendship with OF, my friendship with the Sister, my taking on the personality of the porcupine to protect myself. And it is in my nature to focus more on the finer details than to take a look at the whole picture. This is, often, why I tend to feel blind sided by things that come up unexpectedly.
The third card is Justice, reversed. It was at this point that I began to think I had the reading wrong, but a pulled card came up in the affirmative. This is the reading I’m supposed to have for the question involved. Anyway, the Justice card happened to end up in the “moving toward” area. The card, at first, talks about miscarriages of justice (obviously). However, the lines that really stick out to me are the ones that hint that it could be my own fence-sitting is working against me. The card is, in effect, telling me to make a fucking decision and get on with shit.
The fourth card is the three of swords. This card resides in the “long-term objective” space. This card “suggests you have something to mourn or cry about. You are experiencing stress or sadness because of an emotional hurt that may involve separation from a loved one. It is important to put your sorrow in perspective. You may need to let go of a relationship or situation that only brings you anguish. …It is a card of severance and necessary cutting…” This card leads me to believe that it the dream does have to do with OF and that situation, but it could also just be me trying to bypass my prickly nature and therefore, losing someone I valued.
The fifth card is the Magician, reversed. This card is in the “help in gaining the objective” spot. What this card is telling me is that I’m not using my talents or skills to accomplish my overall goals. My indecisiveness (of which I have much) is blocking me and causing difficulties, as well as delays. It also mentions my lack of confidence causing issues as well as a general feeling of lack of empowerment.
If I’m reading this right, then I’m my own worst enemy. So, maybe the first thought on the whole dream—this being about my prickly nature—is correct? GAH. Why can’t the gods and spirits just give us STRAIGHT ANSWERS?
As a quick note: I felt the need to mention that a while back, I said on my FB that I wanted to come back as a porcupine in my next life. Either that, or I said something about having one as my spirit animal. I can’t remember which, but it just clicked in my brain after having been porcupine-focused all day.