One of the areas of study that I’ve been very interested in for a long time has been crystals. I’ve always had a thing for them. I’ve loved stones even as a child, but those stones were mostly me picking things up from the ground and wondering what was inside of them. I always tried to find stones with quartz flecks within for whatever reason. I don’t, in all honesty, know why I’ve had a thing for crystals and stones for as long as I can remember. I guess it’s just yet another thing that my subconscious has been saying, from the get-go, to take a peek at and I’ve just been too lazy to do more than buy a few here and there.
I have a crystal collection, actually. Well, it’s not really a collection because I have seven types to choose from, however, I have a metric shit-ton of those specific crystals. My “collection” has mostly been stalled at this point because I have so many that I want to purchase and all at once. I want lapis, carnelian, selenite, tiger’s eye, hematite, bloodstone, and a full list of others that I can’t list at the moment. The reason I haven’t really purchased anymore than the ones I have is mostly budget constraints but also because I don’t really know what the hell I’m doing. This has made it so that while I want to purchase these things, look into it, and start working heavily with crystals (such as using hematite to help me ground, for example), I just don’t know if I can or will.
Lazy. It’s a disease, I tell you.
The thing is that I don’t really know what the hell I should be paying attention to, as far as reference material goes. There are so many different books out there about crystals, stones and what-all they’re capable of doing. I’ve read three separate books who have listed different purposes for the same stone. Who the hell do I believe in all of this? Who is the better expert? Who is the wiser expert? And above all, why should I be listening to them?
On the heels of that, of course, is the simple thought that if I could figure out how to “tune into” the vibrations behind these crystals, then I could formulate my own opinions. Of course, I don’t really know how to do that. (Yet another issue with my being unable to ground and center? Maybe. But, I’m told not to worry too much about that, so maybe not.) And whether or not I want to put that kind of effort into this comes to mind, as well. Sure: I think crystals and whatnot are all fascinating stuff. However, do I have the patience to put that kind of energy into learning this kind of thing?
The world may never know.
One day, though, I think I’ll have the collection that I want. And one day, pigs might fly. In the mean time, I order what I can piecemeal.