I keep getting the feeling that Sekhmet wants something from me, in various arenas, but I don’t know what she wants or in conjunction with what. She’s all right with the current offerings (I’ve been doing the “Grain Train” with the two of them: bread and cold water), but I keep getting the distinct impression that she wants more. I don’t know if she wants me to make her some naan bread again, though I will because that’s what I did last Halloween and it was fantastic. I don’t know if she wants me to slice off a piece of raw meet and slap it on a plate for her.
I’m thinking about trying chocolate and seeing how that goes.
To be honest, however, whatever she desires it isn’t just a little extra in her morning offering. I think there’s more to it than that.
So, that could leave her shrine. Maybe she wants to get into her closed door shrine where she hardly ever sees the light of day, but I don’t believe that that is it, either. Don’t get me wrong; she and I have been going back and forth on this subject for some time. So, it’s possible that I’ve misinterpreted her last commentary on the subject, which was that she wants the the cabinet du jour that we had picked out months ago. She decided that I was right (!!! She agreed that I was right!!!) and that she was being a little too demanding and difficult about the shelves she said she wanted. So, we moved back to the shrine!
However, I’m not sure if she’s telling me that I need to buy it right this second or else. As I said, she wants something more from me, but I can’t be positive about the origin of just what that something is. She’s not telling, but just kind of… poking me and prodding me… in a silently aggravating way.
So, this leads me to the dream about the rings from the other night. Maybe she wants me to get my ass in gear and find an appropriate (and fitting) carnelian ring as well as a lapis lazuli one. Okay, that’s fine, except that the initial ring I was looking at, I was told wasn’t actually a real lapis lazuli stone but a lab created one. (They’ll go through any lengths to create everything that’s natural, won’t they?) And I knew for a fact that a lab-created stone was unacceptable. So, okay. Now, I have to find one and I did and I’m looking at it right this second however, I don’t think I can get a size 7, which is in stock, because I want that ring on my index finger and I’m sure that it’s an eight. So… do I wait or just buy it and wear it on my middle finger? I don’t know!
And it’s not like she’s telling me. Ugh.